So, how is everybody? Are you hanging in there? Enjoying some downtime? Seizing the day? Personally, I’m losing my mind and am not really sure how much longer I can take it. I came close to snapping the other day in Meijer, where the once-again empty aisle of paper products reminded me we’re living in Bizarro World. Luckily, I managed to pull it together before getting to produce, but clearly I’m only one “We’re out of eggs, too” announcement from a full-on breakdown.
I’m actually surprised it hasn’t happened yet. I mean, teaching online from home is horrible. I miss my students and my karaoke-singing colleagues, not to mention the simple routine of waking up and putting on eye makeup. And trying to manage four older kids who don’t have jobs, can’t see their friends and are supposed to be nice is nearly impossible, as is ignoring the sheer amount of mess and noise they create. Plus, my husband, Doo, an extravert, is constantly wanting to talk to me and sit next to me and generally engage with me when all I want to do is read “Harry Potter” or binge-watch “Community.” Alone.
Even the house project I started is conspiring to drive me mad. While applying a third coat of white paint to our hideous orange pine banister, I realized that the second can is slightly grayer than the first, making the railings appear perpetually dirty. Why? They are the same!
Maybe I just need to get on with it. I think I’ll head to Meijer for some toilet paper and a good cry.
Hopefully, you’re doing better than me. Peace out.